A lot of people have asked me what I plan on doing after I've finished my year here at Disney. I've definitely thought about it now that I realize I only have 4 short months left. I also realized how unconventional my life really is. In my 21 years, I have done some pretty cool things, and accomplished a lot. I've always been a big dreamer and entertained a lot of career possiblities like becoming a spy, travelling the world in a hot air balloon, and sailing the seven seas with a boat that I built from scratch. While these are all ridiculous ideas and probably things that I won't ever do, it's fun to entertain the thought of them. I guess to answer the question of what I'm going to do afterwards is this:
I honestly don't know.
In school and in life, it teaches you to always have a plan. To look towards the future and accept the past. To go with the flow, but have structure. To be unpredictable but not crazy. To eat your vegetables but to indulge once in a while. To be responsible yet let loose and have fun. It's completely exhuasting. No wonder our stress levels are increasing and the world is falling apart. Life is funny. It really is. We look to other people to find out what we should be doing, comparing ourselves and having the most craziest standards on what we think is the ideal life. What I've learned is to map my own life. And I am in love with that idea. Majority of the time I don't know where I am going, all I know is that I am moving forward. I have the whole world in front of me. To stand at the crossroads and tell people I don't know what's going to happen next is scary, but quite liberating. I find we are all waiting on the world to change. Waiting for someone else to make a move and take action. Instead, I believe we should stop waiting on the world to change, and start changing ourselves. I have reason to believe that people are decent and that we seem to be unlearning what we learned at birth to be a good person. Respect is what we deserve but first we must earn it. I make a million mistakes a day. I put dirty dishes in the the dishwasher that is full of clean plates and glasses, I sometimes eat to much at dinner because the food is just to good, I procrastinate, I forget peoples birthday's, I take the wrong turn and push buttons that sometimes lead to the most crazy outcomes. The key is that I still have the heart to continue. I know that failure and mistakes are a part of life.
My one wish for everbody who reads this blog is to keep marching on. Lighten up and fall flat on your face if you must, but for the love of life, do not stop moving. Recyle. Know that you are worthy of love and belonging. And most importantly wear sunscreen.
from Florida with love,
Jilly
